At the end of Hopeless

Being a obedient boy in my family has been my principle. Especially to my Mom. She never asks me to do something that she knows well that I will not be able to do that. Until one day...
She REALLY wants me to be a teacher for 'government'

I know myself well. I know that I am not 'talented' enough to work for government. I am a free man. I want to work for myself - or, in the other word - to be self employed. I can't work under pressure of government rules. But....
I want to make my mom smile for me. Okay.. I will do that. I will be a teacher for my government as a civil servant.

That day, I joined a test to be a civil servant. To let you know, previously I had had these kinds of tests for almost ten times in ten years. But I simply let them behind because of my ignorance. But that day, I really did it.
Surprisingly, I PASSED the test - something which is quite difficult to achieve. Why? The government only took 7 participants out of about 50 candidates for my region. Right, I passed the test.
I had waited the official announcement for 3 months from the Province about my status until one day I received a VERY BAD news that MY TEST RESULT IS NOT VALID.

My mom cried... It was her second cry after getting divorced. I didn't know what to do... :-(
Anything I had done to make sure that I passed the test legally and with procedure. It didn't work!!!

In March 2009, God shows His miracle.. I got a phone-call from the Government telling me that my test was valid and will be processed well.
And On April 1, 2009, a paper saying that I am a teacher of English assigned to teach at Junior High School in Sebamban (quite a long journey from the Capital City of Banjarmasin), has been in my hands.

You know what?
My mom cries again... but this time, for happiness :-)